Trauma, Abuse, Genetics and Mental Health Hypochondria I’m always searching for that perfect label to describe what’s going on inside my head.

One of the hardest things to do as is to feel normal. Every day, I try to act to the standards I know are expected of me and after years of practice, I can pull it off, mostly. The worry that I may not be normal is one that I know many other people who’ve suffered abuse or trauma experience too.

In some ways, I’m always searching for the perfect mental health diagnosis for myself. Why? Because I feel as if finding a perfect diagnosis could also give me a perfect solution which will let me move on with my life with no scars. I know it’s not possible, but still, I continue to hope.

When I was young, I was most worried about having the same illness as my mother did. I worried that I’d follow in her foot steps.

Now that I’m older, I know myself well enough to no longer worry that some dark genetic trait will rear its ugly head. Instead, I worry about whether my mental health issues are caused by something else; PTSD, OCD, GAD, ADD, SAD and a list of other acronyms. However the range of issues I experience and the way I deal with them, seems to be fairly unique to me. There doesn’t seem to be one simple label that that sums me up.

The effects of violence on victims can be so varied and/or specific to individual circumstances that any limited diagnosis of a disorder or syndrome is unlikely to capture the overall symptoms of each particular victim of violence. The implication of variation and complexity is that interventions need to be flexible, and customised to the specific experiences of that victim/survivor (Briere & Jordan, 2004). – Via The complexity of trauma – clarifying terminology 

Why do I always look for the perfect label for my issues? I think, more than anything, it’s so I can feel less alone. Having a label means that someone else has been there before and maybe, just maybe, found a cure.

One day, I may even find a label which has ‘Mental Health Hypochondria’ as a symptom.

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